Ghosting, My Way of Healing

Monday, April 6, 2020

The older I become, the more inclined I feel to listen to my spirit. So, when it tells me that it's time to take a break, I listen. I usually refer to this time, to myself, as ghosting. The reason being is because I go completely silent on everything and everyone. During this time, I tend not to answer the phone, try to stay home, and take a break from social media. That's what I did in March. I needed space to breathe, and I was crying out for me. The elevated version of myself knew that I needed to become centered again. Too much was going on in my mind to the point of me losing myself emotionally. I was barely hanging on. The signs were all around me, and that's when I knew I needed to be still. Peace be still, is all I could think about during that time. I needed to regather my mind and figure out what it was that I truly desired for my life, but also my wellbeing. Was I going to continue the same habits that always brought me to a breaking point, or was I going to face myself and make a change? To look deep within and tell myself that enough is enough. So, I decided to make a change.

Facing yourself, wherever you are in life, is never easy, but it is necessary in order to see a difference. During the time of me "ghosting," my way of healing, I started the process by writing down how I was feeling at the time. It didn't matter if it was ugly (and it was) I knew I needed to see it. After analyzing my feelings, I wrote down my desires. Every single little thing that I wanted for my life, I wrote it down, and then I sat with it. I would read and re-read it so that positive thoughts would flow through my mind, and ultimately for me to believe it. When you're feeling negative about who you are and where you are in life, that's what you will attract to you — negativity. However, when you shift your thoughts to focus on the good, then you'll attract positive things. Once I got that through my mind, it became easier to adapt to new and healthier habits.

Today, I can say with confidence that I'm at peace with who I am and where I am. Nothing lasts forever. We are constantly growing and elevating to new levels, which requires a different version of ourselves. That's what was happening with me. For me to obtain my desires, I had to match them in every sense of the way, and that was the push I needed to make that change. Matching your desires starts with your mindset, and your mindset is what drives your actions, and your actions are what deliver the outcome. Now that I'm better with a deeper understanding, I'm glad to say that I'm back. Don't be afraid to face yourself because that could be the only thing that's holding you back.

Be Purposely You 💫